Or even "I led Dixingren soldiers against Dixing and now most of them are dead, I gotta step up to plate next time, even if it puts my life at risk," I agree that this is the thought there and that it's pretty reasonable -- I don't even think he interpreted that as a personal failure, he just hated that that was happening and felt responsible to make it stop. I mean, "failure" may be a strong word, regardless, but when he apologizes for not finding the hidden camera, or for (iirc) not knowing how to disarm a bomb in ep 24, those are moderately insane things to take any blame for. Of course those are both linked causing problems for Zhao Yunlan, which is not a coincidence!
Or maybe this whole post was brought about by my own tendency to take on too much responsibility, but not be particularly prone to guilt (first-born child in a rather conservative South Asian family, what can you do?) Ahaha, maybe. But also you've definitely THOUGHT about this and you have a ton of good points, so this post is damn good food for thought. (also I was raised Catholic, I HAVE GUILTS :P)
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I agree that this is the thought there and that it's pretty reasonable -- I don't even think he interpreted that as a personal failure, he just hated that that was happening and felt responsible to make it stop. I mean, "failure" may be a strong word, regardless, but when he apologizes for not finding the hidden camera, or for (iirc) not knowing how to disarm a bomb in ep 24, those are moderately insane things to take any blame for. Of course those are both linked causing problems for Zhao Yunlan, which is not a coincidence!
Or maybe this whole post was brought about by my own tendency to take on too much responsibility, but not be particularly prone to guilt (first-born child in a rather conservative South Asian family, what can you do?)
Ahaha, maybe. But also you've definitely THOUGHT about this and you have a ton of good points, so this post is damn good food for thought. (also I was raised Catholic, I HAVE GUILTS :P)